Confusing~~

One of my colleagues, malay guy, says he likes me. He is younger than me for five months, he said actually he likes chinese gal just that never meet one is suitable, he said he likes my style. I just get shock because i never facing this before. And i told him, i am older than you, and i am not allowed myself to have a partner that younger than me. Initially, i feel quite uncomfortable when work together with him, but after i close to him, no more uncomfortable, and we often making joke to each others. And, another chinese guy, I've met him last month, when i was running a small event around his company. Before we are going back, he ask for my cellphone number, and i gave him. Since then we keep messaging and go out for lunch together. But not long after that, he told me that he likes me and says the three words to me. But i just felt that it's too fast for me to go for a relationship since we've just met for one month more, am i too 'kolot'? I really don't know. He, since i know him for around one month, he's quite a kind and nice person, treating me good but i don't know it's worth for him to treating me like that?I just hope we can understand each other first. He already gave me few gifts , and sometime i felt really touch when he gives me those surprises. I'm staying in my house with my parents, and i need to spend my time to accompany my parents, i need to work, i think my time is not enough. Sometime i need to go to church, church community, sometime i have got some quarrel with my family, have problem with my job, study, my friends.. I am not sure whether i still have time to love? I thought before to work a part time job as a barista, because i'm interest in that. Well, am i have enough time? And am i have enough energy to do so? Hmm, i think need to think properly and need to plan to manage my time good.

All about my job & company

It's been quite a long while i never update my blog. Today i'm taking off from work since i've been non-rest working for 3weeks. Wow, already break my own record. Well, from the first week i worked in the new company, i felt and i doubt whether i can stay alive in this company for one year or not. But after one month i worked, i think i can, because i got a good boss, and a very kind big boss, good colleagues and friendly uncle & aunties. Just that, what challenging me is, i need to study and learn and memorize all those 'science and medical' term. Oh my God, my last job is about engineering, now another one more challenging than the previous one. Like for example, let's say diagnosis imaging, we have got Magnetic Resonance Imaging (MRI), Helical C.T Scan, Fluoroscopy, Mammography, Ultra Sound and X-Ray. And for brain, that is Electroencephalography (EEG). For heart, so call cardiology, that is Echocardiogram, Trans Esophagus Echo, Electrocardiogram (ECG). For lung, Spirometry and for chest, that is Respirometry and so on. If memorize those all term only i think i just need time, but, they request to know all those function as well, i..need more more more time. HELP! Sometime i just felt i can't breathe. Because i'm not only work to learn thing, i still have many many reports, events, creating publicity's staff, somemore some time need to go out, and when suddenly we have customer complaint or facing some problem, even though we are busy, we need to stop down the job on hands then handle and solve the problem instantly. I still remember my boss told me, 'take time to learn, because i have been working in here for 13 years and am still learning'. I just feel, wow, 13 years? No way. But who knows, may be i will be working in this company for ten years also? Sigh. And ah, Ohya, every company sure have gossip 'geng', but i just really can't believe that, the gossip is spreading the news faster then spreading virus from human to human. I'm really scared that someday will gossip about me, so i just doing my thing very carefully but sometime even we already do our best also can't stop them, feel really tired, and one of my friend same department with me told me, just let them say whatever they like to say, that's their freedom to do so. And after that, i have read an article, when people gossip on something, their spirit will be more 'powerful', means that when you are feel sleepy on that time, you gossip around the people, u won't feel sleepy anymore. Wow, i think i want to join that gossip 'geng' as well. Haha. Anyway. i just hope that i will like this job and always do my best! :)

A scary phone call~~~~

Heard of some incident that a person been kidnap by few bad guys then after that they'll make a call for victim's family to ask for money, or so called threaten? Well, today, this case is happened on my family. Likewise, today my dad, my brother and me went to work, just left my mom n my sister in law in the house, oh ya..and also my niece went to kindergarden already. Around 10 morning, my mom received a house phone call from a stranger. Initially, my mom heard of a man's voice, shouted "Help me! Help me! Please!! Help me!!" , for sure my mom gets shock and thought that who is that? what happen?? Then suddenly the voice's change, guess is the "HEAD".. He said; "Your son is now in my hand, if u don't want anything happen to him, u better don't try to call police!!" then my mom ask him back with fear; "What is my son's name??".. of cause, i think all of us very clever, must ask for the sure first, keep sober minded..but that kind of "less-moral" person shouted back to my mom; "Why u asking so much?!! Do you believe that i cut his hand off then send 'it' to your house?!!"..Sigh.. I really can't imagine how if this call is answer by those grandma(s)? Afraid they cannot get frighten or they will.....(imagine it by yourself). My mom asked him again; "Then what you want me to do?" Guess what? He said give them 20k or they will kill him. Without thinking so much, because my mom feel that it is very suspicious, then she asked my sister-in-law to keep talking with him, and then use another cellphone call to her son, my brother. Luckily, my brother has answer my mom, which mean this is just a swindle. My mom gave a sign for my sister-in-law, then my sister-in-law put down the phone immediately. It is finally relief although it's just a few minutes, thanks God! I don't know why it will happened on our family, how do they get all the phone numbers? My sister-in-law said the voice is not a local person, but then how they get our phone numbers? Maybe they form a group to..maybe "earn money"?? Actually, i saw this case before in mail, almost the same case, that moment, i just treat it as reading a story only, but now it's happened on my family, believe it or not just hope that we all must take note. In case of when it is happen, first to be calm down, then think of another way to solving problem. But well, maybe it's easy to say it out, hard to make it? Anyway, just do our best!

Make a way..

Today is the first day i start my working life since few years ago..oops,i mean few months ago..actually today should be a brand new life towards my new job,but what had happening today all day long, i felt that i'm 'lost'.. because of some reason in my working environment..i feel hesitate whether this the thing i want in all this while?or this is just the thing that i think 'i should have' in my life more than 'i wanted to' in my life?i really can't imagine, this is just my first day working in this new environment, i feel wanna resign already..funny huh??i keep asking Lord in my heart, 'Lord, is it the thing u give me? and i should keep going or just...??' sigh...many of thought in my mind, i just can't control it.. i read an article not long ago, one of the paragraph i love to share, when we face a problem, 'A loser will keep thinking that this is the 'big' problem, but a winner will think of how to solve the problem'.. meanwhile, i'm a loser right? ok, i admit it..haha..By the way, what i feel now is lost of hope, where is my future? But thanks to my family,hmm, my mom..and especially my sister counsel me, ask me to stand for it, try for few months first, only make a right decision, and i just hope that i can stand for it..thank you sister! also my cutie mate and my cutie yiti and my hometown friends, thanks for you all support..i believe Lord will make a way for me..i hope that i will have faith in myself.. :)

Save the World!

Save the world before it is too late!
Don't know why, the first thing i wanna share in here is not about me but about the world. I want to share my feeling. Four months ago i heard someone said that the world will be end in this coming September, and at the time when i hear it, i feel nothing , that's because this word is so familiar with us, as the year of 2000. But not long after that, i thought of many things, as if i've no much time already because i've a lot of things haven't try or haven't done it yet. I am a Catholic, so straight away i will think of that, am i gonna be back to my Father after i die? And without any second, my mind answer me that i won't. So sad!! So, i become more passionate in church. I'm going to church every week and pray to God as my sister taught me to do all of this. Soon, the 'things' slowly to come after that, the 'things' i've mention is H1N1. This kind of 'virus' is spread from 'pig'?, and not long ago we heard that it is actually spread from human?, which mean human spread 'virus' to human? Many of the advertising advertise more about save the world, even now, Penang start launching the 'Stop using plastic bag'. It is actually human being if the end of the world is coming, we cannot blame anything or anyone because that's what we've done to this world. But the funny thing is, last week i heard again one of my friend says that the world will be end by next year, the cause is different, because of alien?! Which the name is 'Nibiru' ??!! She even can give me the website to check it out but meanwhile, i think i don't want to think too much already, just do whatever u want to do or whatever u haven't done before it's too late, and keep praying.. and keep trying anything that u think is worth! Well, life's goes on! :)